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The difference

There is a difference between dark and gloomy. There is a difference between being hearers and listeners. There is difference between advice and concern. There is a difference between job and responsibility. There is a difference between being guilty and responsible. There is a difference between offending and explaining. There is difference in avoiding and being left out. There is difference between friendship and companionship. There is a difference between being a leader and a mentor. Don't hear... Listen... There is a difference ...

step 9: Ask for help

Step 8 : Learning difference between a boss and a leader

Hey all During a hustle of being something you are hesitant to be , you learn a lot. I had always put down the idea of being a leader misinterpreting as boss. If you see and experience it closely you will understand. 1. Being social A boss may be very social, but a leader takes social responsibility. Responsibility that how his actions , his behaviour may just create a beautiful change or a disaster by the pack thats following him. A boss tends to have less social responsibility . 2. Getting things done A boss gets done what he wants whatsoever.  A leader knows how to get things done, invests time and energy along with the team. 3. Checking on people A boss finds his team sick , grants leave. A leader checks on them , tries to help them emotional and i. whatever way possible. 4. Growth A boss thinks about his growth . A leader not only things about his growth, but his teams growth and their personal growth. Grooms them to be leaders. A boss goes faster but to

Step 6 : Taming speeding Mind

Hey all ,  As emergency physicians we take not less than 30-40 decisions per minute. As a team leader it only multiplies. You have to be accountable not just for your mistake but everybody elses mistake. This marathon of decisions goes for 6-7 hours or if its a night shift for 12 hours . So for a 12 hour shift around 43 thousand decisions .  Every thing is supposed to be accountable sensible and legit. Lot of trouble shooting. You reach home , crash on bed and not move. No calls made, no decisions to take . Yes , the mind reacts like a car that was running at speed of 120/min suddenly hits a brake . You are likely to have concussion and multiple injuries. The same way if not tamed , the mind thinks and overthinks.There needs to be a regulator. Trying to looks for one because the long flight of thoughts my mind is taking is leaving my body in fatigue. So far so much.

Step 7 : Dealing with somatic symptoms

Hey all There is a time of life your body rejects change , any new change. Your body is not willing to accept any new change. In turn it starts to show disgust towards the change in the form of fatigue, pain , irritability and unhappiness. You try to move out of your comfort zone to grow. On your path to the growth you realise your body just doesn't want to move, it just doesn't want to get along with you. The emotional distress it causes is something you cannot describe . Its more like deceit from someone very close.  You look for medical causes , and medicine doesn't have answers . With your experience , you know that your body is making excuses. Excuses not to move out of comfort zone , excuses not to move on to next path , excuses not to give up to the change. In an attempt to align your willpower and body, mental peace is lost somewhere . The sleep just is out of sight. So far so much.

Step 4 : Parenting skills vs Leadership skills

Hey all People say being mom is difficult, being a dad is difficult. What I find being leader is both but for 6-8 hours of your time. You kick your team members, you've to be protective as hell about them , nurture them , appreciate them , criticize them , take responsibility of their mistakes.  So now at the age of 26 , I feel I am being given the responsibility of a 35-40 year old.  Damn ! the stress is going to kill me early. So far so much

Step 3 : Getting out of Ya Shaikh apni dekh mentality

Hey there Sometimes you walk into the ED with some gloomy memories. The best thing about ED is even if you're dead occupied with things that you don't let the gloomy mood take over.Food, hunger ,sleep excluded. So today, I get less crash cases , I overwhelmingly go teach stuff to my juniors.  Now , the competency is questioned again.  You help people when convenient. Not always. A true team leader should always be hands on. Well, well! "Its tough to come out of the Ya Shaikh apni dekh mentality." So far so much.

Step 2 : Back to square one

And then I thought I was decent with emergency procedures. And today...  I don't get the ABGs, my consultant scolds me that this is the worst procedure he has seen . I , as usual have that ok now what , m being screwed , I don't know what to do face! I don't know but the love to teach emergency medicine to others is ON FIRE I tell you. My own assessment says I'm doing pretty good. Leadership, I've only minded my business today, Not ERs. so far so much bye.

Babysteps towards leadership

Hey everyone Today the 13th of March 2020 , I begin to write this post. For now the secret is between me and my mind and prolly the device I have in my hand.  The secret little determination towards something new. The secret little determination towards something that gives me cold feet.  The secret little determination towards something that Ive been running away all my life no not wedding, its leadership.  Be it leading a class , or a batch of medical graduates , the opportunity of leading the gang had come my way multiple times and rejected stating that I was not competent for the post. The confidence has never been there. I think leadership also has something to do with the upbringing. My parents emphasized me  on minding my own business . So , the courage to be loud , assertive and more importantly lead a pack never came to me . To be simple I never saw myself doing it.  In present scenario , my mentor initially in my first year of residency  emphasized me on teaching , that was a

Step 1 towards leadership : Believe in yourself

Hey all On my day 1 in an attempt to be a leader,  I walk in to the ER with intention of being assertive , yet polite. I think I did pretty well for day 1 .  I was happy. Did feel like it was that bad of a job. Side effects : I panic all night . Stress over things that don't exist. Panic more. So far so much

Leadership anxiety pangs

Hey all, Anxiety is real! Didn't really try it but pep talk helps in getting over the anxiety at that moment of time. So far so much.