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What will people say?

Hey all ,   I received a call from a colleague... He seemed sad and expressed his concerns. "Wajeeha , I am feeling bad for us.  We've not cleared our exams. People are going to say , we've taken 5 years for a 3 years course. It won't look nice. The Royal College Might or might not conduct the exams. Everybodys plans have been stalled. What do you want from your life?." I replied, All I want from my life right now is good health. To be healthy enough to jump back to work.  Don't you think just being alive is an accomplishment in itself after having worked in a deadly infectious atmosphere? I have plans. I am working on them. Exploring them. They will work out when it is time.  I honestly have never chosen a doctor for myself based on the university he has graduated, the number of attempts he has taken to clear exams . The years of expertise he has? Yes, that's a point I'd consider.  As a junior, I've never respected a senior

Thoughts after failing twice...

Hey people So , today is a 101 year old speaking her mind out. This apparantly is the first time , where failure didn't bother me after having put efforts into something. Not even a bit. Not sure if my priorities have changed, or I have turned tougher . I have never been so sober after failing the same exam twice. I've never failed so terribly. For those who don't know, it's my SAQ , FRCEM.  So , do I lose my vision ? No . My aim is still to be the emergency physician, not the best in the town, but someone who can help improve the quality of Emergency Medicine by improving quality of education, practice, protocols.Its just not a word aim ... It's a capacity , an endlessly renewable resource . If this needs me to re-read my book again. Bring it on 🤠👽😎 So far so much

Perfectly imperfect 😅

Toxic Leadership

ED burnout

Hey all Found an interesting article on Healthecareers.com by Emily O'Brien. On Doctor Burnout and what it means Burnout is tough on anyone. It disrupts happiness levels, relationships to those closest to us, and even our careers.  The Maslach Burnout Inventory (MBI) tool is used to measure emotional exhaustion, depersonalization, and dissatisfaction with work accomplishments and measures job fatigue as defined by the World Health Organization. MBI is recognized as the leading measure of burnout and authenticated by decades of extensive research.  A 2017 Mayo Clinic study declared that almost half of the United States doctors—an astounding 44 percent—report some degree of burnout. But for physicians, this exhaustion cuts even deeper.  There's a ripple effect : decreased patient care and an impact on the healthcare system. One key factor contributing to discontent is electronic health record systems. In fact, one study that found that for every hour physicians spend with patient

Break ke bad

Hey all, Life speeden up and gives you breaks when you expect the least. Probably that's how the life is supposed to be. I happened to take a break a decent one that usually practicing physicians don't take for personal reasons. Usually women take such breaks either for wedding or maternity, mine was different.  Before getting back to work , I had various reservations. The most fearsome being losing hold over procedures and clinical knowledge. As a team leader you're supposed to be the best person to do procedures . With so many speculations in my head , I decided to keep walking.  Day one , since we live in pandemic, I had to brush myself with the protocols. I did take help of the second in line. She was of immense help. The Central lines , arterial lines scared me. Yes, they did. I asked my consultant to stay as I was really unsure of my capabilities. I don't know if it's just me or people usually have this self doubt. He stood behind. I supervised the procedure a

Micromanagement

Hey all I am back again with food for thought. Because what goes up there in my mind kind of reflects in my blog.  The thing that's up today is micromanagement. Micromanaging people and our thoughts keeps us away from our goals and bigger picture. It's like halting on a race course criticising how poor the infrastructure of particular area is.  The idea that our mind should be cultivating is , I have been through this tract it's uncomfortable , let this pass. When in better position, I'll make it better for people who pass from here after me or create strategies to pass through the tract effortlessly.  Micromanagement distracts you. Exhausts you.I am learning to prioritise and have a bigger picture.  So far so much.

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